[24 Jun 2006|02:03pm] im getting really drunk later. hehe post comment

[18 May 2006|07:36pm] hello, how be everyone. im not bad so you should be good too. hope everyones enjoying there stuff. i need to get a computer so i can talk to some people. i never seem to call anyone so i need an alternate mode. i will try to get in touch with people but im always busy so it doesnt happen. i saw some people i havent seen i a while. that was cool. it was good seeing you guys. we should keep in touch. so im still working the poopy job. we got a car thats cool. it runs wow. i got some tattos and new piercings for those who havent seen me. there pretty spiffy. so if you want to hang out peoples give me a shout. by shout i meen leave a comment hmmmm. im off post comment

[12 Feb 2006|10:30am] yeah ood i havnt touched this thing in a while. work is gooes.d and im back in school. im taood and amber too.king night classes i hang out with kevin alot now. im starting to hang nowout with friends alot more now. yeah it be fun. the kid be doing good and amber too. so im doing pretty good now. i hope everyone be doin good too. thats all for now post comment

[26 May 2005|01:08pm] [ mood | waiting ] im going to miss everyone and stuff 4 comments|post comment

[25 May 2005|08:28am] [ mood | uncomfortable ] well im saying goodbye to all this and my life is going to change. i'm trying to arrange an interview with the place i'll be working for a long time on friday. i hope i can start working directly after school is over. next friday will be my last day. im sorry to say most of you who i consider my friends and likewise wont be hearing from me for awhile. im going to be working my ass off all summer so i wont be talking to anyone much. i'm going to have a fulltime job and a partime job so i can save a crapload of money. im really going to need it. after summer i'll be around alittle more though. im really worried i wont get to see much of amber this summer. neither one of us have our lisence right now and i'll be working all the time. it sucks cause i really want to see her everyday but cant. i hope shes gotten some accomplished with the whole medicade and getting a job thing. you only need a small non-stressful job. you pretty much just need to cover things for the summer with like getting stuff while your living with your parents. i really need some reasurance right now. i know im going to have a tuff time handling the whole working alot thing cause ive never had a fulltime job before but i have a good reason to work. im worried about everything. im a NERVOUS WRECK at this point. i need some comfort and im sure you do to right now. I MISS YOU 6 comments|post comment

[24 May 2005|10:21am] [ mood | cynical ] [ music | system of a down ] im tired and i dont have much to say. i could really use some reasurance that everything is going to work out. some good solid proof would be nice. all we really have is hope that it will be ok. im very bad when ity comes to these things. i'll just keep on asuming the worst and then i cant get disappointed. i dont know how not to feel betrayed before the actually moment of betrayal. its not easy having others peoples input mean more to you than there own.im ok with being a father and a husband but my parents arent going to think so. why do they get to have an opinion there not really involved. im not sure if they will be when i tell them or if they'll tell me to leave cause they cant handle it. this isnt happening to them its happening to us so they shouldnt post comment

heh, all right. no, its not all right! gigade [23 May 2005|07:56am] [ mood | anxious ] well here i am sitting in skool once again. i only have like a week of skool left though. isnt that cool. only about two to three months left until me and amber are finally living together. i just want to get all the drama over with so me and her can start are new life together. i really hope amber gets a doctors appointment set up really soon. she needs this alot and its not exactly something to be procrastinated over. did i spell that right? i dont think so but its the fist time ever typing that word so eh. im already bored and tired and cranky and sad and drained and all that fun stuff. im thinking i should have went to bed earlier. it probably would have been a very good idea. all i want to do is start working so i can get out of this mess. im predicting alot of unwanted drama coming to me today. today is the day i tell my parents. we'll just see what happens with this. hopefully i dont get shot of yelled at or kicked out of my house. i'll be really happy if there just exited for the whole thing. but given the current situation me and amber are in im thinking im going to here something like this. how could you be so irresponsible. you dont even have your own place yet. your not married. you should have been more careful things of that nature. these are all things that i really dont want to here but i know i'll here them. i need to stop putting it off though cause its been a couple of weeks since we've known and amber already told her family which i bet was hard. i wish this happened about three months from now so i could just go back to the apartment after i told them. i really wont be able to escape it for a couple months and that sucks. im not sure how to go about this. how would you tell your parents your girlfriend is pregnant and stuff like that? it could be worse i could not have a job lined up or i could be eighteen. i also cant think of anyone i'd rather spend my life and have a child with. well im off. i love you 1 comment|post comment

[18 May 2005|01:31pm] damnit all post comment

i'm talking to you [18 May 2005|01:24pm] [ mood | confused ] yeah so i have no idea whats going on. apparently i need an antibiotic cause i went in ambers place of residence. wow thats really crappy. its probably going to cost alot of money so im thinking we can tell mom next week. thats sound good to you? yeah so apparently your not coming over which makes sence cause you have to go get your antibiotic but thats still poopy. im sorry your so mad. well i really have no idea whats going on but apparently you've had a very eventful day post comment

[18 May 2005|08:08am] [ mood | anxious ] well lots of no fun yesterday. it sucked. i went t bills and me and nate watched starwars the empire strikes back. very long boring movie. then after that i played unreal championship it was really fun. i got pretty far on one player mode. today is going to be boring and uneventful. we have some sort of support block today which means i have another hour to sit and do nothing. i hope amber gets to come over today. ive decided we should tell my parents and get it over with. im not sure how my mom will take it but im pretty sure it wont be that bad. im just glad im not going to have to tell my dad. my mom will do that for us. i hope we can do this cause weather we tell them or not there going to know very shortly. i can definitely notice her belly looks pregers cause its not her stomache thats getting bigger. its a good idea anyway cause we'll be able to get some help from them. i'm sure my mom would have no problem bringing you to the doctor or something like that. i just really want to tell them so we can get it over with. ok so give me your input hun so i knw if were going to do this or not. 2 comments|post comment

[17 May 2005|09:33am] [ music | D.V.D.A-Now Your A Man ] This is Amber with a message to all the peoples who are on peter's friends list and not mine. Right, So I've become a MySpace whore...It's Justin's fault. I blame him entirely. So if you have a MySpace account, and you know me, hell, if you just know me Peter's gilrfriend...make me your friend, cuz I only have four and I feel lonely... Thank you for you time. I'm going back to MySpace.... post comment

[16 May 2005|10:14am] [ mood | anxious ] im bored and tired and all that kinda stuff. i really want a cigarette but alas i have none. i've been eating twice as much since i quite so i think im actually doing worse. i need some sleepy time. im wondering how things are going to be once my parents find out ambers pregers. i think things are going to chamge alot between us and thats why i dont want to tell them. i've known for about two weeks now and everyone knows exept for them so yeah. im pretty sure if i dont tell them soon threr going to notice cause it's starting to be noticable. dont worry hun your still beautiful and i definitely still enjoy seeing you naked so dont freak out. it shouldnt get a whole shitload more noticeable anyway so be happy. i've been thinking about names and i really want something different. i hate my name cause itys so genaric and stupid so i dont want it to be the same. hurry up and get an ultrasound so i can stop calling it, it ok. well gtg. post comment

[10 May 2005|01:19pm] [ mood | doing squat thrusts? ] 40 minutes to go. how upsetting. i've already typed 2 long entries so that is all. post comment

[10 May 2005|10:13am] [ mood | aggravated ] i just got kicked out of english for having an arguement with a teacher about a pen. well actually it was more like her being a bitch about me not having a pen. basically this is how it went. i asked if i could borrow a pen. she said your eighteen you should have a pen then i asked what being eighteen had to do with having a pen. she bitched at me and trust me i know civil from bitchyness and she was being a bitch and said you've been told to have a writing utensil since fourth grade it should be implied. then i said fine you go buy me some pens and she kicked me out for being rude. is it just me or does her entire speech seem to be fucking rude. she is by far one of the rudest people i know so its hard taking such comments from her. then i told her she liked to argue more thatn anyone i know which is definitely true then i left. now im here and not letting that completely ruin my day. i wonder how she'd handle confrontation if she couldnt kick people out of class. she probably just be rude and try and make everyone feel like an idiot like she tends to do. im thinking about purposely failing her class and not going just to spite her. you know someones a bitch when i fail just to get back at a teacher. not thats teachers actually care about your success at this skool. they could give a shit well thats my little ranty vent. im finished now. so im in the library. i knew that this day was going to suck alot. im really good at predicting things i think. i really wish i got to see amber today, but i have to take that stupid drivers test. i almost actually cried after that little incedent with the teacher. i have alot of things to deal with and skool really isnt helping me any. im really tired of teachers going out there way to make me feel stupid. i really need to relax and enjoy the rest of the week. 4 comments|post comment

[10 May 2005|08:16am] [ mood | calm ] well things are starting to go wrong already. amber cant get her lisence back due to fines and her needing 645 dollars for a downpayment on her insurance. the government really knows how to stick it in and break it off. im in dire need of a job. im sending in an aplication for a job i was supposed to get but now i might not. skool is going to suck, well im here and so far it already sucks so yeah. im not sure what to do today. i need to study for my damn drivers test. i definitely need my lisence now since amber wont be able to get hers for awhile. i have alot of responsibility pushed on me all at once. its not that bad though all the things i need to do i've been meaning to anyway. i really just want out of my house. this is something i've wanted for a long time now. im not sure whats in store for me next but im but its going to have its ups and downs. more than likely downs. so i'm going to start working in three weeks. if i dont have a job by then i'm going to off myself cause i really need one. today is the only day this week that im going to hate alot. i hate day ones and im not going to be able to do much after skool. i have to study for my drivers test alot and finish filling out my aplication which is sad that i havnt yet. im going to pick up some more aplications this weekend. im not just going to apply to one place and hope i get the job. i need one to badly to do something like that. i figured out it wont be as bad as i thought with bills when me and amber move in together. we'll have enough money and the free furnature is really going to help. im going to look into some form of counseling so me and amber are more prepared for this. i dont want us to go into this whole thing blindly. whatever happens as long as im with amber i'll get through it. 17 comments|post comment

[09 May 2005|01:12pm] [ mood | drained ] well, things are going ok. im tired and want to go home. im sitting here talking to jeice about how much babys poop. yeah they poop to much. then they get tired. I really wish i could go with Amber to the doctors. I just feel like I should be involved you know. I'm going in for my lisence in two days i hope i pass. I'm also going to be handing in an aplication in one day. so amber if you coulpd pick me up and drop me off so I can go to the doctor with you that would be nice. im not that far out of the way am I? I understand if you can't but for future references I would like to be there if i can. 4 comments|post comment

[09 May 2005|09:46am] [ mood | awake ] im tired and have some work to do,but i have two more blocks to do it. i guess were not going to kevins. him and hope are going to new york to see his mom. mikes working all wekkend so thats out. i think we should try for another weekend at my house. i really doubt it though. we might be stuck at your place hunny. sorry about that. well i'll call ya later. 3 comments|post comment

[05 May 2005|01:02pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | stimpy- happy song ] sing a happy,happy,happy,happy,happy song. post comment

theres no better feeling than knowing im ready for everything [05 May 2005|09:32am] [ mood | happy as long as im with you ] im in a pretty good mood now thanks to my amber. i had a crappy start to the day. first i woke up about three times over the course of the night. then i woke up a half hour early. this pissed me off so i went back to bed and woke up at 5:41 thats nine minutes before the bus comes. it sucked alot. i love amber and im glad i was able to make her happy. i think im going to be ok for band practice today. im definitely going to call amber tonite though. i really will. if i dont you may kill me. i'll understand. oh and when i got to school i spilled my orange juice and my goldfish everywere so now im not allowed to have anything orange. surprisingly though im in a really good mood. nothing worries me. im ready for anything and loving everything going on. 4 comments|post comment

[04 May 2005|07:43am] [ mood | worried ] its another day filled with the sadness of having to be here in skool. yes i havent said a single word to a single person so far. im pretty sure im not in the mood for this crap today. im not really in a bad mood or anything im just worried about stuff ad im not sure how to handle things yet. i surprising slept pretty well last night. i went to bed at ten and fell asleep after about a half hour of thinking. i didnt want to get up this morning at all. i still dont want to be awake. i fell asleep on the bus sort of. then when i got toschool i laid down on the benches and slept there. i just desided to get up and come in the libraary cause it was getting really loud and crowded. it tends to get really loud and crowded and really anoying in that area anyway. i dont think i have the mindset to stay in this skool for another month. if i can get a job and transportation to thatt job im not planning on staying here for another month. i really wish the place im planning on working was hiring at the moment but there not and if they were i woouldnt be typing this post id be working right now. i really want to be with amber right now. i need to hold her and just be happy with her there. thats really what i want. if were not woved in together in 3 months im going to start selling vital organs so we can. i man not be able to pee right of drink anything besides water but at least we'd live together. i only need one kidney to live right? and how about those lungs do i reall need two? well the answer to these questions is probably stop thinking about selling organs for money idiot but hey the only thing thats immortal in this world is money right? without it you cant even breathe. well thats alittle bit of an exageration i think. i really want out of here, badly! as do everyone else but there not like me i want out for reasons. i want to get out of here so i can work my ass off and move in with amber. most people just want out so they can sit on there asses. i really dont care what job i do now as long as i make a good amount of money. i also would like to have weekends off. that would be nice i'd have to say. im not sure if ambers coming over today. i hope she is but i really dont know. my mom was sleepind when i got up so there was no asking her. well i think i'll go and try to do some work but i doubt it. i love my amber alot. 4 comments|post comment

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