its on motha fucka, oh it's on

punishme @ 2006-06-24T14:03:00

2006-06-24T18:04:05Z

im getting really drunk later. hehe

punishme @ 2006-05-18T19:36:00

2006-05-18T23:44:19Z

hello, how be everyone. im not bad so you should be good too. hope everyones enjoying there stuff. i need to get a computer so i can talk to some people. i never seem to call anyone so i need an alternate mode. i will try to get in touch with people but im always busy so it doesnt happen. i saw some people i havent seen i a while. that was cool. it was good seeing you guys. we should keep in touch. so im still working the poopy job. we got a car thats cool. it runs wow. i got some tattos and new piercings for those who havent seen me. there pretty spiffy. so if you want to hang out peoples give me a shout. by shout i meen leave a comment hmmmm.
im off

punishme @ 2006-02-12T10:30:00

2006-02-12T15:43:20Z

yeah ood i havnt touched this thing in a while. work is gooes.d and im back in school. im taood and amber too.king night classes i hang out with kevin alot now. im starting to hang nowout with friends alot more now. yeah it be fun. the kid be doing good and amber too. so im doing pretty good now. i hope everyone be doin good too. thats all for now

punishme @ 2005-05-26T13:08:00

2005-05-26T17:09:16Z

im going to miss everyone and stuff

punishme @ 2005-05-25T08:28:00

2005-05-25T12:39:07Z

well im saying goodbye to all this and my life is going to change. i'm trying to arrange an interview with the place i'll be working for a long time on friday. i hope i can start working directly after school is over. next friday will be my last day. im sorry to say most of you who i consider my friends and likewise wont be hearing from me for awhile. im going to be working my ass off all summer so i wont be talking to anyone much. i'm going to have a fulltime job and a partime job so i can save a crapload of money. im really going to need it. after summer i'll be around alittle more though. im really worried i wont get to see much of amber this summer. neither one of us have our lisence right now and i'll be working all the time. it sucks cause i really want to see her everyday but cant. i hope shes gotten some accomplished with the whole medicade and getting a job thing. you only need a small non-stressful job. you pretty much just need to cover things for the summer with like getting stuff while your living with your parents. i really need some reasurance right now. i know im going to have a tuff time handling the whole working alot thing cause ive never had a fulltime job before but i have a good reason to work. im worried about everything. im a NERVOUS WRECK at this point. i need some comfort and im sure you do to right now.
I MISS YOU

punishme @ 2005-05-24T10:21:00

2005-05-24T14:27:28Z

im tired and i dont have much to say. i could really use some reasurance that everything is going to work out. some good solid proof would be nice. all we really have is hope that it will be ok. im very bad when ity comes to these things. i'll just keep on asuming the worst and then i cant get disappointed. i dont know how not to feel betrayed before the actually moment of betrayal. its not easy having others peoples input mean more to you than there own.im ok with being a father and a husband but my parents arent going to think so. why do they get to have an opinion there not really involved. im not sure if they will be when i tell them or if they'll tell me to leave cause they cant handle it. this isnt happening to them its happening to us so they shouldnt

heh, all right. no, its not all right! gigade

2005-05-23T12:11:56Z

well here i am sitting in skool once again. i only have like a week of skool left though. isnt that cool. only about two to three months left until me and amber are finally living together. i just want to get all the drama over with so me and her can start are new life together. i really hope amber gets a doctors appointment set up really soon. she needs this alot and its not exactly something to be procrastinated over. did i spell that right? i dont think so but its the fist time ever typing that word so eh. im already bored and tired and cranky and sad and drained and all that fun stuff. im thinking i should have went to bed earlier. it probably would have been a very good idea. all i want to do is start working so i can get out of this mess. im predicting alot of unwanted drama coming to me today. today is the day i tell my parents. we'll just see what happens with this. hopefully i dont get shot of yelled at or kicked out of my house. i'll be really happy if there just exited for the whole thing. but given the current situation me and amber are in im thinking im going to here something like this. how could you be so irresponsible. you dont even have your own place yet. your not married. you should have been more careful things of that nature. these are all things that i really dont want to here but i know i'll here them. i need to stop putting it off though cause its been a couple of weeks since we've known and amber already told her family which i bet was hard. i wish this happened about three months from now so i could just go back to the apartment after i told them. i really wont be able to escape it for a couple months and that sucks. im not sure how to go about this. how would you tell your parents your girlfriend is pregnant and stuff like that? it could be worse i could not have a job lined up or i could be eighteen. i also cant think of anyone i'd rather spend my life and have a child with. well im off.

i love you

punishme @ 2005-05-18T13:31:00

2005-05-18T17:31:33Z

damnit all

i'm talking to you

2005-05-18T17:28:31Z

yeah so i have no idea whats going on. apparently i need an antibiotic cause i went in ambers place of residence. wow thats really crappy. its probably going to cost alot of money so im thinking we can tell mom next week. thats sound good to you?
yeah so apparently your not coming over which makes sence cause you have to go get your antibiotic but thats still poopy. im sorry your so mad. well i really have no idea whats going on but apparently you've had a very eventful day

punishme @ 2005-05-18T08:08:00

2005-05-18T12:17:06Z

well lots of no fun yesterday. it sucked. i went t bills and me and nate watched starwars the empire strikes back. very long boring movie. then after that i played unreal championship it was really fun. i got pretty far on one player mode. today is going to be boring and uneventful. we have some sort of support block today which means i have another hour to sit and do nothing. i hope amber gets to come over today. ive decided we should tell my parents and get it over with. im not sure how my mom will take it but im pretty sure it wont be that bad. im just glad im not going to have to tell my dad. my mom will do that for us. i hope we can do this cause weather we tell them or not there going to know very shortly. i can definitely notice her belly looks pregers cause its not her stomache thats getting bigger. its a good idea anyway cause we'll be able to get some help from them. i'm sure my mom would have no problem bringing you to the doctor or something like that. i just really want to tell them so we can get it over with. ok so give me your input hun so i knw if were going to do this or not.

punishme @ 2005-05-17T09:33:00

2005-05-17T13:37:54Z

This is Amber with a message to all the peoples who are on peter's friends list and not mine.

Right, So I've become a MySpace whore...It's Justin's fault. I blame him entirely. So if you have a MySpace account, and you know me, hell, if you just know me Peter's gilrfriend...make me your friend, cuz I only have four and I feel lonely...

Thank you for you time. I'm going back to MySpace....

punishme @ 2005-05-16T10:14:00

2005-05-16T14:14:50Z

im bored and tired and all that kinda stuff. i really want a cigarette but alas i have none. i've been eating twice as much since i quite so i think im actually doing worse. i need some sleepy time. im wondering how things are going to be once my parents find out ambers pregers. i think things are going to chamge alot between us and thats why i dont want to tell them. i've known for about two weeks now and everyone knows exept for them so yeah. im pretty sure if i dont tell them soon threr going to notice cause it's starting to be noticable. dont worry hun your still beautiful and i definitely still enjoy seeing you naked so dont freak out. it shouldnt get a whole shitload more noticeable anyway so be happy. i've been thinking about names and i really want something different. i hate my name cause itys so genaric and stupid so i dont want it to be the same. hurry up and get an ultrasound so i can stop calling it, it ok. well gtg.

punishme @ 2005-05-10T13:19:00

2005-05-10T17:21:00Z

40 minutes to go. how upsetting. i've already typed 2 long entries so that is all.

punishme @ 2005-05-10T10:13:00

2005-05-10T14:26:04Z

i just got kicked out of english for having an arguement with a teacher about a pen. well actually it was more like her being a bitch about me not having a pen. basically this is how it went. i asked if i could borrow a pen. she said your eighteen you should have a pen then i asked what being eighteen had to do with having a pen. she bitched at me and trust me i know civil from bitchyness and she was being a bitch and said you've been told to have a writing utensil since fourth grade it should be implied. then i said fine you go buy me some pens and she kicked me out for being rude. is it just me or does her entire speech seem to be fucking rude. she is by far one of the rudest people i know so its hard taking such comments from her. then i told her she liked to argue more thatn anyone i know which is definitely true then i left. now im here and not letting that completely ruin my day. i wonder how she'd handle confrontation if she couldnt kick people out of class. she probably just be rude and try and make everyone feel like an idiot like she tends to do. im thinking about purposely failing her class and not going just to spite her. you know someones a bitch when i fail just to get back at a teacher. not thats teachers actually care about your success at this skool. they could give a shit
well thats my little ranty vent. im finished now. so im in the library. i knew that this day was going to suck alot. im really good at predicting things i think. i really wish i got to see amber today, but i have to take that stupid drivers test. i almost actually cried after that little incedent with the teacher. i have alot of things to deal with and skool really isnt helping me any. im really tired of teachers going out there way to make me feel stupid. i really need to relax and enjoy the rest of the week.

punishme @ 2005-05-10T08:16:00

2005-05-10T12:29:42Z

well things are starting to go wrong already. amber cant get her lisence back due to fines and her needing 645 dollars for a downpayment on her insurance. the government really knows how to stick it in and break it off. im in dire need of a job. im sending in an aplication for a job i was supposed to get but now i might not. skool is going to suck, well im here and so far it already sucks so yeah. im not sure what to do today. i need to study for my damn drivers test. i definitely need my lisence now since amber wont be able to get hers for awhile. i have alot of responsibility pushed on me all at once. its not that bad though all the things i need to do i've been meaning to anyway. i really just want out of my house. this is something i've wanted for a long time now. im not sure whats in store for me next but im but its going to have its ups and downs. more than likely downs. so i'm going to start working in three weeks. if i dont have a job by then i'm going to off myself cause i really need one. today is the only day this week that im going to hate alot. i hate day ones and im not going to be able to do much after skool. i have to study for my drivers test alot and finish filling out my aplication which is sad that i havnt yet. im going to pick up some more aplications this weekend. im not just going to apply to one place and hope i get the job. i need one to badly to do something like that.
i figured out it wont be as bad as i thought with bills when me and amber move in together. we'll have enough money and the free furnature is really going to help. im going to look into some form of counseling so me and amber are more prepared for this. i dont want us to go into this whole thing blindly. whatever happens as long as im with amber i'll get through it.

punishme @ 2005-05-09T13:12:00

2005-05-09T17:20:02Z

well, things are going ok. im tired and want to go home. im sitting here talking to jeice about how much babys poop. yeah they poop to much. then they get tired. I really wish i could go with Amber to the doctors. I just feel like I should be involved you know. I'm going in for my lisence in two days i hope i pass. I'm also going to be handing in an aplication in one day. so amber if you coulpd pick me up and drop me off so I can go to the doctor with you that would be nice. im not that far out of the way am I? I understand if you can't but for future references I would like to be there if i can.

punishme @ 2005-05-09T09:46:00

2005-05-09T13:48:36Z

im tired and have some work to do,but i have two more blocks to do it. i guess were not going to kevins. him and hope are going to new york to see his mom. mikes working all wekkend so thats out. i think we should try for another weekend at my house. i really doubt it though. we might be stuck at your place hunny. sorry about that. well i'll call ya later.

punishme @ 2005-05-05T13:02:00

2005-05-05T17:03:38Z

sing a happy,happy,happy,happy,happy song.

theres no better feeling than knowing im ready for everything

2005-05-05T13:41:23Z

im in a pretty good mood now thanks to my amber. i had a crappy start to the day. first i woke up about three times over the course of the night. then i woke up a half hour early. this pissed me off so i went back to bed and woke up at 5:41 thats nine minutes before the bus comes. it sucked alot. i love amber and im glad i was able to make her happy. i think im going to be ok for band practice today. im definitely going to call amber tonite though. i really will. if i dont you may kill me. i'll understand. oh and when i got to school i spilled my orange juice and my goldfish everywere so now im not allowed to have anything orange. surprisingly though im in a really good mood. nothing worries me. im ready for anything and loving everything going on.

punishme @ 2005-05-04T07:43:00

2005-05-04T12:03:13Z

its another day filled with the sadness of having to be here in skool. yes i havent said a single word to a single person so far. im pretty sure im not in the mood for this crap today. im not really in a bad mood or anything im just worried about stuff ad im not sure how to handle things yet. i surprising slept pretty well last night. i went to bed at ten and fell asleep after about a half hour of thinking. i didnt want to get up this morning at all. i still dont want to be awake. i fell asleep on the bus sort of. then when i got toschool i laid down on the benches and slept there. i just desided to get up and come in the libraary cause it was getting really loud and crowded. it tends to get really loud and crowded and really anoying in that area anyway. i dont think i have the mindset to stay in this skool for another month. if i can get a job and transportation to thatt job im not planning on staying here for another month. i really wish the place im planning on working was hiring at the moment but there not and if they were i woouldnt be typing this post id be working right now. i really want to be with amber right now. i need to hold her and just be happy with her there. thats really what i want. if were not woved in together in 3 months im going to start selling vital organs so we can. i man not be able to pee right of drink anything besides water but at least we'd live together. i only need one kidney to live right? and how about those lungs do i reall need two? well the answer to these questions is probably stop thinking about selling organs for money idiot but hey the only thing thats immortal in this world is money right? without it you cant even breathe. well thats alittle bit of an exageration i think. i really want out of here, badly! as do everyone else but there not like me i want out for reasons. i want to get out of here so i can work my ass off and move in with amber. most people just want out so they can sit on there asses. i really dont care what job i do now as long as i make a good amount of money. i also would like to have weekends off. that would be nice i'd have to say. im not sure if ambers coming over today. i hope she is but i really dont know. my mom was sleepind when i got up so there was no asking her. well i think i'll go and try to do some work but i doubt it. i love my amber alot.

punishme @ 2005-05-02T08:06:00

2005-05-02T12:17:53Z

i had a great weekend filled with happiness. oh look now im here and miserable once again. aint that the shit. i cant wait until this stupid year is over. im really tired of coming to school and im not setting foot in here again after this. i had fun at mikes it was a good time. i think the best part of my weekend was me and amber having time to ourselves on sunday. we dont usually get to do that and i enjoyed it. i really wish it was more time though. im really tired i think after i have a cigarette and call amber im going to bed when i get home. i also have to pick up the money my neighbor owes me but i'll do that later in the afternoon. i really want to be with amber right now. its hard not being near her. i'd be perfectly content if i was at work and then after work i get to see her but thats not the way it is right now. im stuck in school for another month when i should be working so me and amber can move in faster. i'm thinking of dropping out. i'd like the peoples feedback but first this is my situation. i'm not going to graduate due to not having enough credits. i 'm not passing all my classes right now. the only reason i can think of for staying is getting alittle more credit so i can have less night classes next year but i might not be passing anything this year so i dont see the point. also there might be an important expence for me and amber in about five months so i'm wondering what to do about that. what do you think i should do?

punishme @ 2005-04-29T12:59:00

2005-04-29T17:02:22Z

AMBER THIS IS THE PLAN
im going to take the bus home as usual. i hope you can still be therte by the time i get there cause i want some time to ourselves. mike is going to come pick us up cause he doesnt mind and i dont want to make my mom drive. i m giving her a break of driving us around. im in here until 2:00 so you can comment with your feedback any time now. please be there

punishme @ 2005-04-29T09:42:00

2005-04-29T14:03:14Z

well last night was fun. we had alot of progress on the song. i had fun . its cool cause i was actually in the mood for band practise and was able to sing for a couple hours before my throat and head began to hurt. i wish amber was there though. that would have made it better. tonite we go to mikes house which should be fun. crystals still sick so hopefully thats not a mood ruiner. everytime some sort of plans are made theres always a drawback. its really shitty when mike wants to hang out with his friends and crystal doesnt cause they live in the same house so no matter what we do were pissing someone off. i dont think crystal really wants anyone to come over i thinki'll have a talk with her. i didnt call amber last night. i hope she isnt mad i just didnt want to do what we get agrivated at and talk to you on the phone for an hour and ignore everyone. i really wanted to talk to her. kevins kinda sucked without her i just kept myself busy so i wouldnt think about it. it was the loneliest sleep ive ever had though. im not used to sleeping by myself at kevins house. i stayed up until around 1:30 everyone else went to sleep around 12. school is going by pretty fast. i fell asleep in physics listening to another boring lecture. im really looking foreward to tonite its seems promising. were going to do fun things and smoke alot of butts. whoo fun. im not going to have that 25 dollars though so that sux. im going to try and get 13 dollars from mom cause mike said he'd split a carton with me. that should last us the weekend. im goin gto end up bying that carton next week. 5 for me and 5 for amber. i hope ambers tax retern comes in. i dont want her to suffer any longer by having to stay home all the time. plus it will be good for our plans. i cant wait for 6 to roll around. mike actually offered to come pick me and amber up im really thinking about taking him up on that cause we'll be able to hang out sooner. i just dont want him to spend alot of money on gas. see hun see how cool our friends our. mike is willing to come to my house pick me up and then pick you up then go get his paycheck and pick jece up. he really wants to hang out with us im thinking. well i'll see you all soon and were going to have fun or i'll swallow your souls. well thats it for now.
love you amber

punishme @ 2005-04-27T13:01:00

2005-04-27T17:03:40Z

yup and junk

punishme @ 2005-04-27T11:19:00

2005-04-27T15:28:22Z

well i have kind of a busy week planned. today i have to clean bills house from 4 to 6. by then my mom and amber should be home and i'm heading there to see my amber. i hope this happens anyway. thursday were having band practise at kevins and i think were spending the night there. im pretty sure were not going to kevins this weekend but mike wants us to come over and hang out. we'll probably do that then go to ambers saterday night or something im not sure. it will be planned by this friday though i'll be sure of that. im tired i hope i can get some sleep tonite. if not i'll probably have a nervous breakdown or just fall asleep during skool like i did last time i was sleep deprived. amber keeps worrying about stuff and it makes me nervous. she doesnt respond well when shes nervous. be happy for everything were going to experience together. i love you and i want to share all my experiences with you. our first place. all our first happy bills, hurray? our first fight as a married couple, by the way you'll be the one sleeping on the couch. i love you and hopefully we'll see eachother today.